Thursday, June 29, 2006

some wierd stuff......

Okay something was sent to me today, it was some silly urban legends thing. Everybody remember the song "Love Rollercoaster" by the Ohio Players, right? Well In the song you hear a faint scream. I never really paid attention to it before, until this thing slowed that part of the song down....and yes you hear what seems to be a women screaming in terror. Well ummm......here read this....

Here's how it goes.....
One day The Ohio Players were in the studio laying down Love Rollercoaster. In the other room, a photo shoot was taking place and the model was oozing honey all over herself. One shot required her to lay on a fiberglass surface and drip the substance over herself. As she did this, she realized she was stuck to the floor. The folks in the area had to tear her off of the surface, which resulted in the tearing of the skin off of her back and her legs and arms. She became so angry that she barged into the studio where The Ohio Players were laying down Love Rollercoaster and screamed her head off at the manager and threatened to sue the record company for everything they were worth. As the band was recording, the manager pulled out a knife on the model and basically stabbed her to death. The screaming was unknowingly recorded into the song, and was not discovered for a long time. That's what makes this album great for me, the mystery and secrets behind it. See if you can find it, it'll scare you silly


um yeah, FREAKY, huh?

BOOOM....THUMP.....SWISH....

Okay here's is an detail description of the events that took place from 5:07 to 5:20 pm last night....

I was driving home listening to "Had A Bad Day", which is a song I love, and beeboping in my seat, cruising at oooo about 70 miles per and hour. I look down at my clock on the radio and then all the sudden BOOOMM....THUMP THUMP THUMP....RATTLE RATTLE RATTLE....and SWISH.....(me) "That wasn't my F'in Car was it?" (screaming). I look around and I didn't hit anything and I'm still going down the highway in a straight line....then again BOOOM...THUMP THUMP...(me) "OH HOLY FXXX!!!" SLamming on my breaks, and serving to the right side of the road (which a ditch was). Looking into my rearview mirrow I see this black rubbery thing flying behind my car. I turn the radio off, roll down the window and I don't hear the usualy Thump thump, you get when your tire is flat. (me) 'Huh, must of ran over part of a semi blow out, nothing to worry about." I drive on home. Get out of my car, and look at the right front tire, "HOLY SHIT!" I was looking at my tire, um...what was left of it. There was um, no tread left on my car, it was as bald as could be. (me) "Um that can't be good." I had to go to my nephews double hitter last night SOOOO i drove ooo so carefully and slowly, which btw is not me.

(now events from this morning).

Got up early this morning so I could go get a new tire, go outside and look down at the tire (me) "Well Shit". THe tire was flatter than could be. I don't have an air pump at my house, so again I drove slowly the 7 blocks to the gas station to air it up, yeah i know DUMB SUSAN, but I had to get it aired up in order to get a new tire. Sat at the tire place for like 15 minutes before they open and then pulled into the stall and they all looked at my car (dude) "Hmmm....yeah, that's not good." No shit shirlock, but I didn't say that,he was a nice guy. (me) "I really don't want a brand new tire, do you have a used one in good condition this size?" (Dude) "Man, sheesh, I don't know.....let's go outback and look." visual discription of the dude.....greasy holey kahki pants, holy yellow mustard colored shirt, cigeratte hanging out of his mouth, shoulder lengthy creasy hasn't been brushed for oh his entire life hair, and a hat. (me thinking) "I'm glad there are other people here, or going to the 'back' would be left up to him and him alone". (me) "Cool". So i following Mr. Cigeratte man to the back, and walk into the mountain of old tires. He finds one for me, a Goodyear. (dude) "This okay?" (me) "Sure, if you say so." I don't know it's a tire dude, and I'm girl, looks fine to me. So he puts the tire on the car, plumbers crack and all, yeah nice thing to see at 7:30 in the morning. But like I stated he was a very nice guy, just um...a little um..greasy. He comes up to me (dude) "Well that's 5.00 for the tire 5.00 for putting it on 10.00 for the balance of the tire, and are you wanting the old tire back." (me) "Oh, no thank you." (but really thinking) "What the hell am I going to do with a piece of shit left of a tire." (dude) "Cool, but I'll have to charge 3.00 to leave it." (me) "Sure, no problem." (dude) "Cool, that's um..23.00 bucks." So I write out the check and thanked him, and I was off on my way to work.

Phone rings, it's my boss, (boss) "Susan, I told you it was fine if you were late, last night." (me) "I just wanted to make sure, but I'm on my way right now, and OOOO I just passed part of my tire." (boss) "Ooookkkayyyy.....see you in a little bit." Yeah, I don't think she was impressed, lol.


NOW TO EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENED:

See somehow, and I don't know how, all the freaking tread of my tire came off, BUT, the tire didn't blow out, which I guess is very strange. When I told my mom this last night she stated "Well sweetie I'll let you know that you do have a plot next to grandpa's out at the cemetary, if anything ever does happen." (me) "Well thanks for letting me know, because boy I sure was worried about where I was going to spend my eternity!!!" LOL.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Blubbering Idiot...

So no real topic for this entery, and I do apologize deeply for it.

I got up at 4:50 this morning,only after bein asleep for about 3 hrs, and I had to drive to Bartlesville to the weight clinic. Yeah, I knew it before i got on the scale. I didn't gain any weight but I didn't loose any either, how depressing!!!! I'm going to give myself 1 more month of this weight clinic thing (that has helped 2 times in the past) and if still nothing next month I'm done doing the 70 bucks amonth thing for no good reason.

Drama to galore at work, OMG! I'm not gonna get into the situations, but i'm just gonna say OMG, one more time for my sanity.

I emailed J today, we've been talking on and off for about 2 weeks. I don't know where it's gonna go, or if it will go anywhere, pfft...i don't know...I do miss him ALOT!!!

Been thinking alot of a past boyfriend of mine, Nate, well yeah, I got a nice desturbing email from him about a month ago, he's getting married in October, i was like "ppfffttt...whatever". LOL. He couldn't make up his mind when we dated if he wanted a freaking girlfriend, i don't know, I learned my leason on that one quickly, don't sleep with someone until you really know who they are! Yeah, not a good thing.

My bathtub drain is draining slowly, kind of like the pace of a snail, it's really annoying. I put Draino in the drain, pfft, it didn't help, kind of made it worse. *Shrugs*, this is why we need men around, lol.

My body is screaming baby, and my head is screaming NO NO NO NO. I only get this way after holding a baby, and I haven't held a baby since my cousin and she's um 2 1/2 now, lol. This is coming from a woman who really can't stand children. Well I shouldn't say that I like children, okay, that's a lie, SOME CHILDREN ARE NICE, then there's the others that you swear the movie the OMEN was based on, yeah, those type of children I don't like. They make me scream and run the other direction.

My sister-in-law and brother keep joking for me to hurry up and get pregnant because they have dibs on my first born, lol. I'm always like, "Okay let me get right on top of that." LOL. In actuality if this EVER did happen and i wasn't married, I'd better move 4 states away, change my phone number and make it unlisted, BEFORE deciding on telling my mom. HEHEHE.

I'm not pregnant so no ideas should be forming in your little heads, lol, just is just what has been going through my mind for the last couple of weeks. You know it would be a whole lot easier if we could just get our selves pregnant, so we wouldn't have to have those icky men attached to us as well, lol.

Told my SIL and brother the name I want to name my boy, and they laughed at it, and told me that I couldn't possibly really mean that, and that no child should be tortured like that, I don't think it's a bad name :( *Sniff Sniff* I don't see anything wrong with the name BENJAMIN do you?!? It's just a name that I came up with when i was a kid, and my only boy doll (an imatation cabbage patch) name is Benjamin, and that is the only name for a boy that has EVER popped into my head, my mother hates it as well. :( I mean I wouldn't call him BENJAMIN, I would shorten it to BEN, I think that is a strong name for a boy, and he can grow old with it.

See nothing much about nothing....sorry....scattered brained today....only 3 hrs sleep. Went to bed around 10 got back up at 11 not being able to fall asleep, went back to bed around 1:30, and when i layed down I was so fortuniate enough to lay in pee, yeah, that was a nice present!!! Got really angry put the pups in the cage, where they stayed for the rest of the night, and changed the sheets cleaned up the mess and finally went to sleep, but not before I started balling because I couldn't go to sleep! I'm so pathetic sometimes LOL. I always hear about people crying themselves to sleep, which indeed I have done, but no one has ever heard of someing crying because they COULDN'T go to sleep. I just get so frustrated sometimes, I'm tired and I know i'm tired, and it's like the brain JUST WON"T FREAKING SHUT UP!!!! It's like HELLO, can we not worry about this UNTIL TOMORROW SLEEP DAMIT SLEEP! Nothing works, I try counting i've gotten to 2000 before and it doesn't work, sheep just freak me out so i don't eve go there, i try to think of happy things doesn't work, try to think of sad things, doesn't work. I finally give up and go take something that WILL WORK. Tylenol and NyQuil have become my best of friends. I don't abuse them by no means. It is just sometimes a person just needs to go to freaking SLEEP! LOL.

Well I guess that is enough blabber for one night, I hope it makes sense. Again sorry for jumping around so much.......

Monday, June 26, 2006

Manic Monday....

Well not really, but I love the song either way. For about the past month now every morning when I get up to go brush my teeth, the thought of putting that toothbrush in my mouth makes me physically ill. It's not becuase I put the brush to far in my mouth either, this is even before the brush enters my mouth. LIke this morning before the brush hit my lips I had to turn around and throw up in the toilette. Why this is happening I have no freaking idea!!!

This weekend was pretty much uneventful for me. I cleaned the apartment on Saturday and did laundry, and somehow I pinched a nerve or something in my lower left side of my back, right around the kidney area. I was fine for almost the whole day with the pain, it was just a nagging pain, but it got worse as I was sitting at the laundry mat waiting on my almost 20.00 worth of laundry.

When I got home it took me like 2 minutes to get out of the car, I couldn't twist left or right, it hurt something aweful. Then I was putting the bed back together, and bent down to tuck the blanket and the sheets under the matress, this sent me straight to my knees in seering pain. It took all of my strenght just to scoot myself onto the bed, and I curled up in the fetal position and just cried it hurt so bad. Flash backs came to me from a couple of summers ago when the doctor thought that I was passing a kidney stone, but the only thing with this is it didn't hurt to go to the bathroom, it just hurt do move. The pups jumped on the bed, and licked the tears off my face. Jade she started pawing the top of my head,and I think she put her two front paws ontop of my head, not for sure, but I know she started howling as I started crying. About 2 minutes of that I was okay to get back up, still hurting but not as bad. I got the bed made and went in and drew a steamy hot bath and took some tylenol pm and that seemed to loosen stuff up. I'm okay now, still a little tender in that area, but nearly as bad as I was saturday.

Yesterday I went to my parents house to get the pups nails clipped, since I seemed to nothing but butcher the heck out of the Thursday when I tried to do it. They have so much fun out there. My mom's two weanies have this habbit of chacing the squirrel. Well Katie just looks at them like they are strange and does her own thing, and Jade was so cute, she had no idea what she was chasing after but she just ran with the other two!!!

Katie snapped at her first person yesterday. A stranger came up to pet her while we were outside, and when the lady bent down to pet Katie she snapped at her, this has never happened before. I apologized more then needed, the lady said that it was alright she'd snapp to if a stranger came up to pet her. I picked up Jade, and said "here you can pet the black one, she's not vicious". LOL. Jade just licked her to death. NOrmally this is what Katie does, but NOOOO, not that time....she must of been PMSing, lol.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Feeling pretty damn good...

Well it is 2:11 in the morning, and YUP I FEEL GOOOOOODDD!!!!! I do believe I have had to MUCH Rum and Diet Coke....

After work i decieded to go to a freinds to swim for a while, then I came home and cleaned up and went back out and we all ad the time of our lives. We partied hardy man! I somehow did not fall down this time!! HEHEHE. I'm home now (no I didn't drive I had sober person bring me home), and i'm just blaring da music throughout my apartment, it's great living on my own!!! LOL. When I lived at home with my parents I had to be very quiet and go right to bed. Other that the 15 stairs I have to climb to actually get into the apartment it's great. I can run around do as I please, dance with the dogs, listen to music, right now I'm playing Vitamin C, Me Myself and I, I love that song! I love her! Did i just say that outloud? OOOPS.

You don't realize how long it has taken me to post that paragraph! LOL. I know I have some spelling errors in there somewhere, but I swear I tried my best. HEHEHEHE.

Well I'm hungry I'm gonna go fix me something GOOD to eat. Why is it after drinking you always want pancakes and eggs? HMMMM....I'll try to think of a good explanation for that in the morning as I'm recovery from the serious hangover that I know I'm gonna have.

Well I'm off....PEACE LOVE AND o well you get the point...NIGHTERS@!!!!!

Friday, June 23, 2006

Quiz Days...

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have low extroversion.
You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.
A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.
You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people.

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have high neuroticism.
It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.
You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.
You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is medium.
You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.
But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.
You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.


Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.
You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Philosophy
Music
Theology
Art
History
Foreign language


You're A Crazy Drunk

When you drink, you get wrecked - and it ain't pretty.


What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping.
Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well.
You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers.
You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.


How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Getting To Know Me Better

(i apologize for the all the gramer errors, however I am not going back and fixing them all....you'll have to deal with my 8th grade education. lol).

Okay I have nothing really that intersting that has happened to me to post about. I know...I know....sorry!!! But however! I'm going to post some random stories that has happened throught out my life, just so you can know me a little bit better, well I guess I should say you can know the cluts in me better!

1985 AGE 5 - My mom took myself and 2 other girls over the school yard that was a 1/2 block away from our house to burn off some energy. I looked up at her and stated "I'm going to do the monkey rings." And scampered off. She told me no, because I would get hurt. "I do it all the time with daddy." I stated, she just shrugged her shoulders and said "Well when you get hurt don't be surprised if I say 'I told you so'". Whatever that meant I was 5! I just continued to run towards the monkey bars, I climbed up and put both hands on the first ring. I hung there thinking, 'k, hmm...', I let one hand go to reach for the the ring in front, OOOPPPSSS, BOOM, straight to the ground I went. I started balling my freaking eyes out, like I was being murdered (so my mom tells me, lol). I remember her walking oh so slowly towards me, and thinking, "hurry mommy hurry" but all i did was cry. My mom states yes indeed she was walking slowly, she just thought that I hurt my butt and my feelings. Oh little did she know, when I stood up and started running towards her, because her ass (course I didn't think those type of words until the age of 6) was not fast enought. She gasped at what she say. My arm had looked like it shrunk to half it's size and it was all wombling back and forth.

I ended up having emergency surgery (only after we spent an hour at our local hospital for my parents to be told "we can't do anything for her". And we had to drive 45 miles away to Bartlesville to Jane Phillips Hospital), 2 pins put in to keep my elebow together, broke 2 bones in my wrest, and was in the hospital for 3 1/2 days, doped up on morphine, woohoo!!!! I learned my leason, NEVER DO THINGS WITHOUT MY DAD!!! (he was the one that always helped me do the rings, and made it seem like I did it myself).


1984 4 years old
- (this is not my clutz story) - I was walking to the bathroom and saw my brother jumping up and down on his bed, trying to pull his blinds down. I watched in amazement, I think because we were not allowed to jump on our beds, lol. Then I stated, reminding you I'm 4 years old, "You are gonna fall out that window." I continued on to the bathroom. As I was in there I heard a big crash, and my brother say "Oh Shit!". I got up from the pot, forgetting to flush the toilett, a nono in our house, and went to investigate. The only thing I saw as my brothers butt and feet the other half of his body was hanging out the window. I snickered and said "I told you so." Off I went to get my mom, mainly to tattle tail on him. Well he got in trouble only after my parents rushed to the emergency room becuase he was bleeding everywhere. The next day when my mom was cleaning up the mess I brought my little chair out and sat down in it in the hall way shaking my head the whole time "i tried to tell him, but men, they don't listen". <---I should of remember that!---->

1994 14 years old - I was away at church camp, having the time of my life. I was on swim break and had to use the restroom, they had pretty nice rest rooms but they were in this brick building that didn't have roof. I went to go wash my hands after using the rest room and when I turned on the water I saw what I thought was a spider spreading out it's legs, I screamed of course, and jumped back. As I jumped back I tripped over the concrete bench that was behind me. I went down and hard. I didn't realize I was hurt until I tried to get back up. This was not accomplished until after 2 counsilors came in to see what was the matter and helped me up. I didn't look down at my ankle until about three minutes after the incident, but when I did it had almost tripled it's size and was turning a dark purple color. I started crying then, why is it when children realize that they are hurt that's when they start to cry uncontrollably? *Shrugs* They helped me out to the pool area and put my foot into a bucket of ice water, on my god, i thought i was going to die then. A girl I had met at camp that week came out and asked, "Susan, where's the spider you saw?" I told her that it was in the sink, she said oh, and snickered. I looked up at her and said "I'm afraid of spiders." She lauged harder, by then I was getting angry with her, how dare she laugh at me when I was dieing! She disappeared and came back with her hand closed. "Is this what you saw?" She said and opened her hand, I closed my eyes I didn't want to see the stupid ass spider that just about killed me. She told me to open my eyes, I did finally, and what was stairing back at me was nothing but a FREAKING FUZZ BALL!. (I learned, look before leaping).

1997 17 years old - I had an old car a 1979 Rivira (sp?) it's was my pimp mobile, lol. Well we had the transmission worked on and someone the linkage got all screwed up and Drive was Reverse, Reverse was Drive, Park was Neatural, and Neatural was Park, I think you got the idea. Well I was the closing shift manager at Taco Tico in my town, and we were all leaving for the evening. I started my car like usual and I didn't have to reverse it because i was parked in such a way that all i had to was crank the wheel to get out of my space. Well I was being BLONDE and not thinking I put my car into Drive and punched down on the gas. To my amazement I was going backwards. I almost hit one of my employees, well actually almost ran completely over him, but thankfully he jumped out of the way, and the rear end of my car went up the little side walk and then into the side of the builing. I stopped the car got out to make sure my boy was safe he was, but everyone was laughing their booties off. I properly manuevered the car forward this time and I left the biggest hole in the side of Taco Tico ever. (lesson learned, do not let highschool mechanics class fix your car, even if it is for free!).

1998 18 years old - I was all decked out in my skater jeans that would always get caught on the buttom of my doc martins. I was walking down the stairs at school on my way to stupid aerobics class. When the pants got stuck on the heals of my shoes which jerked me forward and I completely fell down the stairs. When I landed, I landed on my right foot right on the edge of the step, the doc martans I had on where ones that had a buckel on the sides of them, and my foot landed right on that part that that strap and the show meet togther. By this time I was so used to falling down stairs and crap that I didn't cry, it hurt like hell but I didn't cry. I got up and brushed my self off, thinking that I got away with no one seeing me. A girl on top of the stairs was starring down at me, and asked "are you okay?" She startled me, my face began to feel like it was on fire, "Yeah, sure I'm just fine, a clutz but just fine." She turned around and walked off. I on the other hand hobbled to my class. I took my shoe off in the locker room. I had this big dent in the top of my foot and it was starting to swell fast (i sprained my ankle like 100 thousand times before this) so I quickly put my shoe back on knowing that my foot would not go back in once the swelling was compelete. I hopled to class, the teacher asked me why I was not dressed for class, I explained what happned. She told me to take off my shoe, I said I couldn't do that. So therefor she didn't believe me, and made me do the jump rope test anyways. I thought I broke my foot, oh god it was painful, I pleaded with my father to take me to the hospital and he said no way, you'll be fine. Well a couple years ago I had a problem with heel spurs and went to the foot doctor, first words out of the doctors mouth when he looked at my foot was "when did you break your foot?" I told him the story, and he said "Well it didn't heal right". (Lesson learned "Father's do not always know what is best!").

Last one! Promise - 1996 16 Years old - I was sitting in my cousins living room, just chatting up a storm, and I was sitting in a rocker like a lady with my legs crossed. I got up to do something and fell flat on my face, skinning up my nose and chin. I forgot to uncross my legs before I tried to start walking. Yeah, that is the thing that still gets my family rolling on the floor to this day. They say "Yeah, Susan sure is a true blonde at times!" (lesson learned, family members NEVER LET YOU FORGET HOW STUPID YOU ARE SOMETIMES!!!).

Yeah i know i said the last one was the last one, but i thought of another one THIS ONE WILL BE MY LAST ONE.

1990 10 years old - I was playing in our back yard like I always did when I was a kid. I was in the biggest soccer game ever and it was up to me to score the winning goal, of course this was all in my head, lol, i had a pretty vivid imagination. Well I kicked the ball as hard as I could, the crowd cheered, my team won, I scored the winning point. Okay enought with the visual, when I kicked the ball it went over the fence and into the dogs pen. My dad kept the latch on the gate of the pen pad locked, because Sugar knew how to somehow get the padlock off the latch and and open the gate and let herself out. Well I was too lazy to go inside get the key go back outside walk to the back of the yard (the whole oh 100 feet of so), get the ball, get the dog back into the pen, go back inside to put the key back up, then go back outside. Who the hell has time for all that?!? So I just started climbing the fence of the pen. I got in the pen threw the ball over, walked over to Sugar and petted her, she drooled on my hand, I told her she was gross, and started back over the fence. I was almost over but I got stuck. I couldn't move my foot any further, I thought my shoe lace was stuck, because it had happened before, I turned around to untie my shoe, I start screaming bloody freaking murder! To my horror the little spokey things that poke out ontop of a chain lenght fense was stuck in my ankle. It was the front part of the foot where the shin is connected to the ankel and then the foot, okay back to story, well it went through there and was trying to poke out on the ankle bone part of my ankle. I started screaming "Someone help me! Help! HELP! HELP!" I tried to get my ankle loose it wasn't working you can only do so much with one hand balancing you the other tring to get your foot off, and the other free foot stuck in a hole in the fese so you don't go sliding off the stupid thing. I swear I screamed for ever. I screamed and screamed and screamed for my mom and my dad who were inside the house 100 fee away. Nobody....I cried and screamed, and thought I was going to die and be eaten by birds, yeah I was dramatic hey I wanted to be an actress!!! Finally I saw this guy running down the alley way. He jumped over the fense and pulled my foot off, blood ooozing out of the puncture hole. He carried me up to the back door and rang the bell. For the 2 seconds we waited for one of my parents to open the door my foot was in a puddle of blood. I almost got sick. My dad answers the door, and says "May I help you" in that tone that really means who the hell are you and what do you want? The man explained what happened, my dad opened the door, he let the man leave through the front door. My mom had picked me up and put me on the couch, by the time dad was back mom was on the phone with the hospital. I remember her saying "NO...No...Yes...she's very pale....no...yes...okay...thank you." (me being pale not a good thing, i have year round wind rash on my cheeks, lot of people think i have rosasia i don't though). She put pillows under my foot and gave me a blanket and a popcycle. "The doctor states that unless the bleeding doesn't stop then there is no need to go into the hospital. YOu will how ever have to have a shot for tetnus." Okay question, you just calmed down your 10 year old child, then you go off and tell them about a shot?!? Comeon get seriuos!!! I started crying again, and screaming. Yeah, my day was shot after that!

I'll explain why I didn't have to go to the hospital. I could move my foot, I had feeling and sensation in my toes, and it was a clean puncture wound. The doctor stated to my mom unless she couldn't get the blood to stop by elevating it, then there is nothing he can do for a punture wound.

The lesson learned, take time out to do things right, short cuts only get you into trouble!

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Pictures



this is the banner that we made for our team "march with the sneetches" for the relay.



this is of the fountain that is in the entrance to the park where the relay was held. I had to get a picture of it at night.




this is one of my dads favorite pictures of me and my brother (i croped him out before posting in here, don't know if my brother wants his picture on the net, hehe). The 8x10 of this picture was ruined along time ago, so I took a wallet size and enlarged it, and gave it to my dad for fathers day. I had just turned 3 when this picture was taken and my parents had, had me for 1 year.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Fighting for a Cure....

As I sit here typing this my back, butt, and legs are all on fire! OUCH!

Last night was the town I work in Relay For Life, and our company participated in it. Although I only walked 1 hr (straight no stopping), I am sure paying for it now!! This year's theme was "Dr. Suess" and we were the "March of the Sneetches" once I get the picture uploaded of our banner I'll post it, but I'm not getting up again until I'm down posted, hehe.

We had a great time, there was this girl Monica who didn't have a team and asked if she could join us, we said sure! She was a nice girl, well she wasn't a girl she was a middle aged woman. But nontheless she was nice. I was the 3rd walker in our group, we had a total of 4 walkers that actually walked around the "track" it wasn't a track it was like this big oval that people normally use to cruise around on friday and saturday nights.

We had more walkers than that, but we had to pack everything up and leave at 12:15 am, because of a bad storm coming in, I don't know if the storm hit the area or not, because I live 20 miles south of the town, and all it did here was rain.

So the Relay didn't last it's normal 12 hrs like it was supposed to, but it was best being safe than sorry.

I'll most deffiantly do this again next year, what a wonderful cause this is. Everyone has had a loved one, or at least was touched in someway of knowing someone you has fought, is figting, or passed away of cancer. I have a nephew who is 10 years old who is a surivor, and I lost my grandfather 2 years ago to this horrible disease.

There was a family last night that had on bright green shirts, they weren't really in the Relay it's self. They brouhgt a bunch of supporters for a girl who was in their group who is currently fighting this disease, this touched my heart!

The survivors ranged from the elderly to the young, and to see the sea of purple shirts taking that first lap around the oval was just an awesome sight. When it was time and they light the luminarious (i don't think i spelt that right), for the ones "in memory of" and "in honor of", that was the most beautiful and sentimental monent. I this year was short on funds and was not able to buy my grandfather an In Memory Of one for him. I was walking around the track while they started lighted the candles in the bags, I just looked up in the sky and told him silenlyt that I love him and we all miss him.

So since I was not able to buy one last night I have found a picture off the net and I will post it here today...

I dedicate this in memory of my Grandfather who was 83 when he passed away.

Kenneth W. M Born January 19.1920 Enter into Rest on December 17, 2003.

We all love you grandpa!!!

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Yes again....

This is true these are the songs that came up to these questions, when I did this for the very first time i was at work and had way to many kenny g's, and britney spears songs for my liking so I thought I would take a shot at home, where I have everything from Judy Garland to the Yeastie Girls (nasty group, nasty nasty nasty, but funny!!!!!)



1-Put your music player on shuffle.
2-Press forward for each question.
3-Use the song title as the answer to the question.

How am I feeling today?
Crazy = Aerosmith

Will I get far in life?
Wanna Dance With Somebody - Whitney Houston (now how is that gonna get me far in life?)


How do my friends see me?
Poison - Alice Cooper (i feel the love, really)


When will I get Married?
December - Collective Soul (nah too soon)


What is my best friend's theme song?
Milkshake - Kelis (oh goodness, i don't want to know!)


What is the story of my life?
Sometimes I wake up cryin - Dixie Chics


What was highschool like?
Rumors - Lindsay Lohan (hmm..yup that sums it up)


How am I going to get ahead in life?
Roll Out - Ludacris

What is the best thing about me?
You're so vain - Carly Simon


How is today going to be?
Love in the elevator - Aerosmith (oh god, you do not know WHAT kind of people go in and out of the elevator where I work! This IS NOT A GOOD THING!!!)


What is in store for this weekend?
Why don't you get a job? - The Offspring (well okay but I already have one, that I like!)

What song describes your parents?

Discovery Channel - Bloodhound Gang (HAHAHAHAH!!! That was truly the next song when i hit the skip button from the last, HAHAHAHAHA, and EWWWW)

What song describes your grandparents?
L.O.V.E - Ashly Simpson

How is my life going?
Who will save your soul? - Jewel


What song will they play at my funeral?
So Fresh So Clean - Outkast (well at least it will have a beat)

How does the world see me?
The Right Kind of Wrong - Leann Rimes (nice)

Will I have a happy life?
Every Rose Has it's Thorn - Poison (again that's nice)

What do my friends really think of me?
Teenage Dirtbag - Wheatus (k this is starting to suck)

Do people secretly lust after me?
What's Your Fantasy? - Ludacris


How can I make myself happy?
Gangstas Paradise - Coolio (too bad there aren't any gangs here :( )

What should I do with my life?
Mmmmmm" - Crash Test Dummies

Will I ever have children?
Pieces of Me - Ashey Simpson


What is some good advice for me?
Lets get it on - Marvin Gaye (k when I originally did this at work i had the HOOK UP by Britney Spears, I think the music is talking to me!)


What is my signature dancing song?
Dirrty - Christina Agularia

What do I think my current theme song is?
Boom I fucked your boyfriend - 20 fingers (okie dokie....that's a little um...ok)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Cold Day in July - Dixie Chicks (HAHAHAHAHAHA how cool!!!)


What type of men/women do you like?
8th World Wonder - Kimberly Locke (huh?)


What kind of kisser are you?
Pretty Fly for a white guy - the offspring

What's your style?
Keep 'em seperated - The Offspring


What kind of lover are you?
Wide open spaces - Dixie Chicks (k that's just gross)


What would be playing on a first date?
Give it away now - Red Hot Chili Peppers (<---music is talking to me!!!)

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Other Side - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Life...

You know what sucks is when you are living your life and you think everything is honky doory, and then BAM, life hits you right in the face.

Yeah, that's what I feel like. I had a wonderful experence the first part of this year, and then I think life decided it was going to take it's own little turn not matter if I liked it or not. I blame life for this, life stinks! I wish I were a dog, their only worries is if they have a good loveing home, food, water, and lots of love. Yeah, that sounds good to me.

I believe that maybe I made a huge horrible mistake, but I can't go back and fix it. I wish that there was a big clock (like the one in back to the future), that if you really needed to you could go and push back the hands on the clock to the exact moment when life decided it was going to take you on that stupid wrong turn, and change it. But unfortuniatly we can't do that, in our dreams maybe, but not in real life.

I truly think that life was only trying to test me and my strength, and unfortuniatly life won, and I was beat like a red headed step child in this test. I crumbled under the pressures, the pressures of life. But my life is not the only one that I messed up, there where a whole lot of other lives in the mixup. Pfft...leave it to Susan to fuck something up. Like the saying "give it to mikey, he'll eat anything", it's like that with me but it's "if you want it messed up for life, give it to Susan, she can mess up anything".

I guess that I'll live and learn from this experience, but I rather have life go my way once in a while, and not the other way around.

I haven't slept well for the last oh month or so. I just lay there in my bed thinking to myself what could have been, but it is not. Yeah, I know that made no bit of sense, o'well.

Pfft...(if you don't know what pfft is it my version of a raspberry for the internet)...you know I would like to shove Life up it's own ass sometimes!!!

Well my point is actually this, whomever's life I screwed up I'm sorry. I don't look for forgiveness or anything like that, just to let everyone know that I'm truly sorry, that I'm bad omen and seem to not only screw up my own life but others as well.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

some pictures from my work email this morning...












Monday, June 12, 2006

1-Put your music player on shuffle.
2-Press forward for each question.
3-Use the song title as the answer to the question.

How am I feeling today?
If I Can Be Where You Are - Enya

Will I get far in life?
What a wonderful world - Kenny G (hmm k)

How do my friends see me?
Breathe On Me- Britney Spears (alrighty then?!?)

When will I get Married?
In The Rain- Kenny G

What is my best friend's theme song?
By The Time This Night Is over - Kenny G (don't know if this is right or not, lol.)

What is the story of my life?
Outrageous - Britney Spears (LOL that's is about right!)

What was highschool like?
The Fear of Being Alone - Reba McEntire(maybe this is so...)

How am I going to get ahead in life?
Dare - Gorillaz - (huh?!?)

What is the best thing about me?
Sister Rose - Kenny G - (yeah okay...whatever)

How is today going to be?
Whoever's in New England - Reba McEntire - (what?!?!)

What is in store for this weekend?
Havana - Kenny G - (woohoo do i get to dance in Havana Nights?!?!)

What song describes my parents?
Forever In Love - Kenny G (that's about right!)

What song describes your grandparents?
Every Planet We Reach Is Dead - Gorrillaz - (Well one of them is no longer with us?!?)

How is my life going?
The Last One To Know - Reba McEntire - (that's just about right!)

What song will they play at my funeral?
Me against the music - Britney Spears (hmm...okay...)

How does the world see me?
Brave New Girl - Britney Spears (Pfft)

Will I have a happy life?
Don't Make Me Wait For Love - Kenny G - (that's always reassuring!!!)

What do my friends really think of me?
The Joy of Life - Kenny G - (okie dokie)

Do people secretly lust after me?
Cathy's Clown - Reba

How can I make myself happy?
One Promise To Late - Reba

What should I do with my life?
Kids with Guns - Gorrillaz

Will I ever have children?
Love will find its way to you - Reba

What is some good advice for me?
The Hook Up - Britney Spears (does that mean a one night stand?)

What is my signature dancing song?
Toxic - Britney Spears (no comment)

What do I think my current theme song is?
A Moment Lost - Enya

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
In My Head - Anna Nalick

What type of men/women do you like?
Jesus, Take the Wheel - Carrie Underwood (huh?)

What kind of kisser are you?
How Was I to Know? - Reba (know what?)

What's your style?
Waters show the hidden heart - Enya

What kind of lover are you?
The Heart is a Lonely Hunter - Reba (excuse me?!)


What would be playing on a first date?
Theme From Dying Young - Kenny G - (always a good first date song...pfft)

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Forever In Love (Digame) - Anna Nalick (woohoo!!!)

i have come to the conclusion after doing this : I listen to way to much Kenny G and Britney spears!

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Stupid Warning Labels

No explanation needed on the following except this: SOmeone had to do the following to even to have thought up SUCH IDIOTIC WARNINGS!!!


Microwave popcorn is packaged so that the directions cannot be read unless you open the plastic and unfold it. Direction #1 is Remove plastic

On a Band-Aid box: "For serious injuries, seek medical attention."

On a hose nozzle there was a warning that said: "Do not spray into electrical outlet."

White - Westinghouse 1600 Blow Dryer
Keep away from water

Unknown Batman Costume
Warning: Cape does not enable user to fly.

Little Ones Baby Lotion
Keep away from children

Demazin Infant Drops
This formula may cause drowsiness, if affected do not operate heavy machinery or drive a vehicle.

Phar - Mor Children's Aspirin Free Pain - Relief
In case of accidental overdose, please contact a physician.

Unknown Earplugs
These ear plugs are nontoxic, but may interfere with breathing if caught in windpipe

Unknown Mattress
Warning: Do not attempt to swallow

Unknown Wheelbarrow
Do not use when temperature exceeds 140 Farenheit.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Sick Sad World

You know I don't know what to think about people who buy clothes for their animals, and force them to wear them, like the animal is an actual child. I think that these people are sick in the head and need to seek a mental health professional right away!





And this is what she thought about wearing it......





yup she said "well you think that's cute, here I'll leave my present to you, you bitch!"

I can proudly say that dress is now being torn apart into pieces by two animals right now. That was 7 bucks well spent, pfft...

*no animal was harm in making this post. However there is a spot on a rug that is now being soaked with dawn dish soap and club soda, don't try this at home*

Yup

What an interesting title to a blog entry huh? Pfft...it's only because I couldn't think up of one, I'm not cleaver to actual write a subject that would describe YUP, lol.

The last couple of days at work has been hell. I don't know if it's because I was off for a week, or if it's just that time of the month for all of our customers, including the males.

Yesterday everyone in the office was in a terrible mood, not me, I was in a wonderful mood, thank you very much. But everyone else was a stinker. Then today it's not the girls in the office it's the customers. I had one guy call me a cock sucker, yeah I loved it, I just sat there really silent and listened to him say the shit he did, and then I said "You do realize I can hear everything you are saying, rihgt?" He replied "I really don't give a F*** what you hear". Alright then. ANd that is what I said, alright then. I got him to calm down 2 times, normally we don't have to stand for that more than 1 time, but I was trying to give the nice asshole the benefit of the doubt, well no, he was just that an asshole. He started in on me again, and I just stated "you can call back" and I hung up, lol. The back up supervisor got him next, but by this time I had already noted his account, and HEHEHE, I got a "talkin" too by the supervisor, not really, but you know, whatcha gonna do, I did everything that WAS in my power to do. Sent outside tech out and told him I can't control what they do from there.

Then I had this other customer tell me I was informing him of the wrong thing. I gave him "his current balance due" which is um...the only balance I see on my screen, I mean I'm a natural blonde, but come one I can READ a billing screen, especially when there is only ONE BALANCE DUE!!! Anyways he stated that I was informing him of the wrong thing, and then he said "So my current balance due is (insert amount here)", as he said this i laid my head on my desk and started wadding up a piece of paper, by this time I'm about to go threw the phone and shove the current balance due down his damn throat. I replied "Sir, that is correct, that is what I have told you 3 times already". I mean how can I be informing someone wrong if they repeat the EXACT thing I just said? I dunno, makes me wonder what kind of drugs these people are on, and why the hell they aren't sharing them with me?

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Last day of vacation :(

Well today is sunday, and it is the last day of my vacation :( Sniff Sniff. I'm ready to go back to work though because I do get a bit stir crazy if I don't have a routine to follow.

Haven't done much at all this week, just took the time to sit back and relax, and visit with family. Today I've done nothing but lay on my air matress in the living room and watch the Womens College Softball World Series. Very, very good game going one right now between UCLA and Northwestern. They are in extra innings because of a tie, well now someone on Northwestern just hit a homer, lol. See interesting game. I don't really care who wins the simifinals, or the whole thing, I just like watching the game.

The reason I'm on the air matress is because I don't have a big enough couch to sprawl out and lay on, and I don't want to sit in my recliner. My lower back is out and my tooth is killing me, so when I had the rugrats over friday night to stay the night I just left the air matress up. It looks tacky, but o'well I'm the only one who sees it. Someone else has hit a homerun for Northwestern, I'm thinking that northwestern will advance to the finals, but they still have the bottom of this inning for UCLA to come back. Off subject I know, lol.

I'm in better spirits today then I was yesterday, which is good, like I said I yo yo back and forth all the time. The pups are driving me up the wall they are so playful today, they have jumped all over me while I have laying on the matress watching tv, I don't scold them because they can't go out and play, and they have to burn their energy some how. I wish I had a back yard for them to play in, but I don't. I think later in the evening I'll take them to my parents house and let them run free for a little while, this always tires the baby out, which is good :P

Well back to the game, since it has gotten so interesting since I've been in here posting. Thank you to all for your kind comments, you don't know how much it means to me to have my friends and "online" friends root for me :P

Check Ya Later - as said by Slater from Dazed and confused.

In bit of a phunk

LONG POST

As i sit here in my house all alone late on a saturday night, I can't help but fell...well alone.

I've been in this phunk the last couple of days, well okay almost a month now, but really has gotten bad the last couple of days.

I have always had these spells ever since I can remember, even at a very young age. I always ask the same question over and over again, "Why did God put me on this earth?" I know it's not just to take up space and breath his air, there's got to be more than that. There's got to be a purpose out there for me to be here. My best friend Laura doesn't even know that I think this. This is something that I have been bottleing up my whole life. It's not just wondering what am I supposed to be doing or where am I supposed to go from here? It's I've screwed up everything I have ever done in my life. It's like I take a step forward and then as soon as that happens it's like I take 10 steps back. It seems like I will never be able to reach that goal, whatever that goal may be.

I've stopped asked the questions "God why did you let me be born?" I used to ask that one a lot when i was in junior high and high school. I finally figured that he has something instore for me, I just wish he would hurry up and show it to me. I used to curse my biological mother for even having me, she made a choice, she really didn't want me, so why have me? Then I realized it's because I was not ment to be her daughter. I was meant to be the daughter of the parents I have now. I have put them through so much it's not even funny. No I never was a drug addict, although I have dappled in it as almost any teen has, I don't sleep around, and up until I went to college really never drank that heavy.

What I mean by I put my parents through a lot is, I was not a nice person. I have been mean to a lot of people in my life. I regret this also, I have recently apologized to my mother. We used to have the most horrible fights ever imaginable. Sure mother and daughters have their fights, but shew, ours was almost punching each other lights out kind of fights. Don't get me wrong my mother never hit, she yes slapped me, but never hit. I deserved those slaps also, if I was the mother and my daughter was saying what she was saying to me as I did her, I'd be in jail for killing my own child.

I've been doing alot of thinking this past week of why I am the way I am. Why I don't get emotionally attached to people, and once I feel that I am, I freak and run as fast as I can the other direction. I believe that the first years of a persons life is the most impressionable, this meaning like to the age of 2 or 3. This is when a child learns how to love. I was not loved when I was with my biological mother. She loved her boyfriends and drugs more than her kids. I don't remember any of this, this is what I have been told. My mother was a very self distructive person. I'm scared of men, no matter if I'm dating them or not. The only man I am not scared of is my father. When I first start dating a person it's so hard for me to even sit next to them without the feeling that I'm going to throw up. The just freak me out, I have lost alot of relationships because of this. I feel one bit of love for them and Freak and run, run as fast as I can.

Those that know me know that I don't cry easily. Whenever I see someone in pain it doesn't even make me cry, there is something wrong with that. It's like I'm not in the room with them, and wished I wasn't. I do not do good at all at consoling someone. I sucke majorly at it. I get all tongue tied and don't know what to say or do.

I have a lot of unresolved issues from my past before my adoptive parents. There are gaps missing, I have flash backs but they do not make sense, it's like trying to put together a puzzle when you do not have all the pieces.

I blame my biological mother for alot of how I am today. I blame her for the relationship I have had with my mom. I believe whole heartedly that the reason I lashed out at my mom was because I couldn't lash out at the one person that I was truly mad at, my biological mom. My mother didn't deserve the way I treated her while I was growing up, and frankly I don't know why I acted the way I did.

I hear that the age I am at right now it is common to have these questions about life and what not. So maybe it's just the age, but if it's just the age, then why have I had these thoughts all my life? I have only 1 time thought about ending all of it. I was in the 10th grade and I had a fight with my mom, I said some hurtful things to her, things that even today I can't take back but wish I could. I went to the bathroom and took out bottle of pills of my fathers. I didn't even get as far as opening up the bottle, I couldn't do it. Yes it would be easier to end the pain, but I could not put my family through that. I don't have those thoughts anymore, I'm stronger than that. I just get into these phunks every once in awhile, especially when something major happens in my life.

I admit that I have dealt with the pain in different ways over the past, and still deal with it, but not in the best of ways. I'm not proud of what I have done to everyone in my life, even though I try hard to be better it's like I'm getting no where. Again those close to me know what I'm talking about. And no I didn't do anything tonight, I wrote here instead.

I'm not writing this so everyone will read it, that's not it. I don't have this blog for that, course I do like that people out there care and do read it, but this is for me, I need and outlet, or I'll just absoluely loose it. Even as I explained throughout this post of my anger and how I manage ie, NONE of us want me to absolutely loose it. I've lost it once before, it was not a good thing either. I black out and don't know what I'm doing, so to avoid that and other things that I may do to relieve the pain, I type here.

My mother states that she will tell me my biological mothers name all I have to do is ask. I have not desire to meet this bitch, but sometimes I wish I did have her name, because I know she's still lives in the same town or surrounding area, and just tell her how all this has effected me.

You know I was alot better when i thought the state took me away, somehow that was in my head, that the state interviened and took me and my brothers away (i don't know who my brothers are either, just know I had 2). It was easier to deal with. But to learn that you weren't wanted and your own flesh and blood is the one who willingly put me into foster care, just so she can do her drugs and her men. That kinda makes a person feel worthless you know. My father from what I gather wanted me, but couldn't provide or take care of me, as he was in jail at the time, he dien't want to sign his rights over, he refused until he knew who wanted to adopt me, then he signed his rights away to them.

I have the best parents in the world, and God i wouldn't change that for a minute. yes my mother and I have had are battles, but I believe since moving out that we are doing better than ever. She still gets on my nerves but you know i'm glad she's here to get on my nerves. My father is the sweetiest man I know. No matter how long and far I look I will never find another man that compares to my father.

Well enough blabber for one night, i just needed to type. This has helped, I needed to get this off my chest, why I don't know. But I think I can go to sleep now.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

100 things about me

1. I was born on December 3, 1979
2. I am adopted
3. I was adopted at the age of two, and it was 2 weeks before christmas in 1981
4. Susan is not the name I was born with
5. I have natural curly hair
6. I haven't always had natural curly hair
7. I'm the youngest of 4 children and the only girl
8. My oldest brother is 46 years old
9. My oldest nephew is 9 months younger than me
10. I have 2 dogs
11. I love dogs
12. I live in a garage apartment
13. I had natural blonde hair up until the age of 14
14. It turned brown at that time
15. I had blue eyes until the age of 12
16. They turned a hazel/greenish color at that time
17. I don't know if I want to have children
18. Biggest fear is if I do I won't be a good mom
19. My biological mother didn't want me
20. She stated we didn't get along, even though I was only 1 years old at the time?!?
21. I have 2 best friends
22. Laura is my bestest friend
23. Diana is my other best friend, she lives in Oregon
24. Laura and I have been friends since the 6th grade
25. But I have known her since the 1st grade
26. Diana and I have been friends since the 1st grade
27. If I do have children I already have their names picked out
28. Girl = Kaylin Marie
29. Boy = Benjamin Matthew
30. I have a doll and his name is Benjamin
31. I loved Benjamin Seaver off the "Growing Pains" while I was growing up
32. I have no toenails on my pinky toes
33. My middle fingers are crooked
34. I DEATHLY afraid of spiders
35. I freeze when I see one
36. I'm allergic to Snuggle Fabric softner
37. I'm also allergic to bee and wasp stings
38. I'm also allergic to shrimp
39. I used to play the flute
40. I've played the sax and the clarinet also
41. I can't sing but like to pretend I can
42. My secret desire is to become Famous
43. I do not like Tom Cruise
44. I don't think Johnny Depp is all that hot
45. I love the show Charmed
46. I have an Associates Degree in the Arts
47. I went to a 4 year college, and um majored in "Drinking"
48. I could have easily became an acoholic while away at college
49. I have a tatoo
50. It's of a dolphin
51. I do realize I will have this when I'm 90 years old (shrugs)
52. I have had my tongue pierce 2 times
53. Considering doing it again
54. I'm crazy
55. I think I have OCD
56. I wish i had a sister
57. I collect lots of different stupid things
58. I have just recently realized that I'm an Adult (GASP I KNOW!)
59. I'll be 30 in 3 1/2 years (OMG!)
60. I'm writing a book
61. Have been for about um 5 to 6 years
62. I have been engaged 2 times
63. I've only called off 1 wedding
64. I do not like drinking anymore
65. I have done pot and acid
66. I was stupid
67. I have extreme menstrual cramps, and have been diagnosed with PMDD (Premenstrual distress disorder)
68. I am supposed to take medicine for this, but don't
69. It's too expensive and I don't have health insurance
70. My mother and I have just recently starting getting along
71. I love taking pictures of anything
72. I hate to shop for anything
73. I get nervous in a big crowd
74. I used to want to be an actress, but then realized I suck at acting
75. I have had 4 cars in my lifetime
76. My favorite car was my 79 Riviria
77. I want to own my own house one day
78. I can not stand shoes and socks
79. I can not stand scratching my clothing to take care of an itch
80. I can not stand idiotic people
81. I like crime dramas
82. I like watching reality tv
83. I work for a phone company
84. I work in customer service
85. It's an okay job
86. Like the people I work with more than the job itself
87. Would like to go back to school but don't know for what
88. I do not know what my credit rating is
89. I first learned how to use a computer at the age of 7
90. I was considered a bully in junior high and high school
91. I regret the way i was in junior high and high school
92. I have apologized to those i was mean to in the past
93. I have dated 3 guys with the name Gene
94. In grade school I was in the "popular crowd"
95. I had my first kiss in the 6th grade, it lasted 3 whole seconds
96. He dumped me the next day
97. I was not allowed to go on a date until i was 16
98. I have this feeling that people are watching me all the time
99. I love macaroni and cheese
100. I lead a pretty boring life

Pictures....

The first pictures are of the beautiful flowers that my sister-in-law planted in her front yard. Some of the pictures are a little cloudy because it was very cloudy out last night when I took them.














These pictures are of my spider bite, the first 2 were taken last friday after going to the doctor, the last one was taken today. THe scab is just about to fall off and I'm afraid of what my nose is going to look like after it falls off, I hope I doesn't scar to bad!!! YIKES!!!